What's up with Smallville?
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: Kiss the Girl
ok so I just finished watching the latest episode of Smallville. Poor Clark lost his powers last episode and he still had to play the hero and it looks like from the spoilers for next week that he gets shot and dies.
I guess that's what I get for missing a whole season, I mean when did Lex become the bad guy? I always thought that Lex would be friends with Clark but hate Superman. Oh well. I could have sworn that I had seen the guy who played Spike on "Buffy" show up at the end of the last episode so i'm going to wait to see if i was right.
Well not much is going on hence the rant about Smallville. Nothing that isn't important right now anyway.
later.

Life is good
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: Life's a show
Sorry its been so long...ok ok i'm not. Work has been busy with all that's been going on. First Joe's wife passed away, which in away is still seemingly odd to me. Death hasn't hit this close for awhile and its just weird how life goes on. It should, don't get me wrong, but like i said its just weird. One day a person is there and the next they're not.
While he was gone taking care of all the arangements I stepped up. Its not so good when you have Lynne flipping about every little thing and i think that's why i was so frazzled. That and the numerous phone calls to tech people got to me too. Stupid computers grrr. They work well now and Joe's even impressed at what i learned while he was gone in terms of how to handle all that crap. The major thing that caused the problem was incopetent people installing the retrofitted COD for our menu board. That just screwed our whole system over pretty much. Oh and i can't forget Cat breaking one of the registers. When we replaced it it caused problems and in order to final daily close we had to do an ISP malfunction...oh joy.
So enough about work. David and I are getting on well together and we are enjoying are new apartment. We went to one of his cousin's weddings yesterday. I loved the DJ...I asked for some information from him and he happens to be a friend most of the Bos family.
Speaking of David's family, I thought his mom and dad our cool but all the people I met yesterday are awesome too. They were so excited to meet David's fiancee that i wished I had a tape recorder of me saying thank you and our wedding date on it. They are a bunch of crazy people though, which is good. David's mom thought for awhile that i was a bit uncomfortable, but to be honest I enjoyed my self. They sort of reminded me of the better times I had with my aunt and uncle at outings except for the overbearing part. I was very relaxed and even enjoyed a couple dances with David's dad, brother Scott and his uncle Ed.
I really like the fact that his family is so close and big...it just reminds me of what i missed out on from being from a small family where we don't get together very much.

moved
Mood:  hungry
Now Playing: nothing but quiet
As of Wednesday I officialy moved out of my paretns house. David and I got our own place in streamwood now and we have everything almost completely unpacked and set up. Actually I had it done by Thursday. The packing to move sucked but unpacking was hell of a lot easier. I really didn't think we would have as much room as we do and now i'm just kicking myself for throwing a lot of my furniture and stuff out. We could have used it to fill up the place.
Its nice though, we don't have to listen to the parentals and the neighborhood is really quiet, and i mean really quiet. If it hadn't been for the kids outside today I would have sworn we lived in a ghost town. Sure there are cars everywhere and all but we don't hear any of our neighbors at all, hell i'm not even sure who our neighbors are at all

So much to do, less time to do it in
Mood:  rushed
Now Playing: B4U...a DDR song
Well first thing first. I have purchased my bridal gown. Its so totally perfect for me. I swore up and down that i would not get a strapless gown, but yet I did. Thanks Kym for helping!!

Episode III was the coolest thing ever. I can't wait to see it again. For those of you who haven't seen it yet, I won't comment further on it at this time. Sorry.

So anyway I'm moving on June 1st. David and I are moving in together for those of you who didn't know that already. yeah and we just were looking for an apartment and we originally were thinking about moving in August but he told the people that we'd move in on June first. Ha!. I have years worth of stuff to pack in a week and a half or something like that. Needless to say that the packing is comming along rather slowly thanks to my work schedule, blah. But it will be worth it in the end.

Changes
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: One of my Dad's westerns...Blah.
There have been some changes around here as of late. David got a car. He has a 94 Ford Tempo. Well when we went to pick the car up he had no idea what kind he was getting since his mom picked out and told the dealer to hold it. It was one of those private dealers so it wasn't a problem. Let me tell you that if David and I had changed positions and my mom picked out that car I would have shot her. The paint is chipping off in more than one location and some of the stripping on the inside is falling down too. And in my opinion the inside looks shabby. But since I don't have to drive it I guess it will have to do.
Britt and I have changed jobs. I am now doing the schedule and she is doing the waste. I personally think she's got it easier now. I did my first schedule on Monday...yeah that was fun. I was a dumb ass and decided that instead of basing it off of the previous week that I would have the computer automatically generated it. That was a big mistake. For one the crew availability is all the same and based on a 24 hour scale. In other words I had the high school students being scheduled during the week at like 8 am. Needless to say I had way more editing to do than if I would have based it off the previous week.
Oh and since I had to edit so much it took me so long to do and I had a lot of little errors too. But I had Lynne, Joe and Britt check it out. I left a post it note on it saying "Please edit me. I'm Dawn's first schedule."
When I walked in today Lynne handed it to me and said "Now don't be mad. You have to change a lot of things." Well I wasn't mad but I realized she was smoking crack. Before I submitted it for editing I'm had counted how many service and production people I had plus how many managers I had for each shift. Now for some reason she came out with two or three people more than I did. I think she counted David twice a few days so I pretty much skimmed her changes over and then I saw what Britt put down. Now Britt's made way more sense then Lynne's did so I went by hers.
Then I made some changes of my own and decided that since we need labor in at 18.5 percent this month, there was no way we could do it with the number of people we had. So I cut people's hours here and there. I don't care if they bitch or not as Joe said today no one is nice to me so why should I'm be nice to them...I tried to be fair about it though and not cut the same people everyday. I can just imagine what will be said when Lynne puts the it up tomorrow. I had handed it to let her double check it again.
Next week though will be easier I think.

Christina called me today and let me know that she is an official certified manager. I think its cool, she works hard and deserves it.
David got his safe, drawer, and detex keys this week. Joe even let him count drawers and the safe yesterday as well as cook the breakfast products which he didn't get to do last week. His managerial cloths came in today as well so on Saturday he can start to wear them since he's off tomorrow and Friday.

I've also decided that I'm not very happy with Lynne for the time being. We had discussed my days off for this month and said she was fine with it. Then all of the sudden she was telling me that I needed to take those days as vacation time, we discussed this again and agreed that I wouldn't have to do that since I was working the rest of the week. Then on Monday when I walked in she told me right away that I HAD to take those days off as my vacation time...and the way she said it suggested that she wanted that to count as my whole week. I said no I wouldn't do that because I want to take my vacation in June the weekend Laura has her wedding. Lynne sort of just gave me this look and sort of snippity she goes, "well then you have to pick up an extra day the following week." I said fine. I then asked Joe if he wanted me Tuesday or Thursday since those would have been my two days off the week after. He gave me as confused look and said it didn't matter to him and then he asked me why. so I explained to him what had happened and he said it was bogus of her to do that. At least someone sees it my way. he said that I would more than make up for it now that I've picked up doing the schedule. So basically I'm working Thursday through Wednesday without a break.

Oh and my mom's health is failing. Three weeks ago she had to go have a biopsy done. The Doctors found cancer cells in her blood but not enough to warrant any alarm. Well she had to go in for more test last week to determine where the cancer was coming from. Originally they suspected the bone marrow. This test negated that theory but the enzyme that contains the cancer cells would normally be found in the bone marrow. They can't pin point where the cancer is originating from and they found that the cancer cell count has almost tripled in two weeks...that's not a good thing. They have mom going in for more test this week. They are going to be looking at her lungs,pelvis and kidneys. Mom says she thinks its the kidneys though because she has unexplained blood in the urine. She also says that she's just been really tired. Now she had Leukemia back a couple of years ago, they never found where it was originating from but it was in remission. so everyone is thinking that its the Leukemia again.

More randomness
Mood:  chatty
Now Playing: Thank God I'm a country boy
This just in...we so need to get the ac fixed at the store. It reached like 87 degrees in the office and we couldn't turn it off! Needless to say no one really wanted to do the required paperwork and whatever. It got so bad that some of the customers were complaining that it was hot too.
On another work related note, somehow the back McDonald's sign the one commected to the building on the roof, came down. It was so weird cause only the middle portion of it came down and you could see the bulbs. If it wasn't for me they would not have noticed it. It was an easy fix.

Yeah I've also been working on my story. I know its about time but Kym managed to kick my ass into gear. She's really great on the encouragment part. so yeah that's about it for now. Maybe more later though.

The truth comes out and 2 days of classes
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: Around the World by ATC
So as it turns out, Joe didn't push Tammy. She had just lost her balance when she tried to take the keys back, but because no one really saw what happened, she made it appear that he hits her and stuff. RIGHT.

I have worked Monday, was at a scheduling class yesterday out in Warrenville at the regional office, and out in Elk Grove today for SIO 2005. Two classes in the same week and one was held on my day off. That's fine I'll just be exhausted Friday because I have a school order to get out and a total of 60 shamrock shakes going out tomorrow. It looks like I have at least a full production team, but I may be down service people from the looks of things. So much for 50/50 balance. The only thing that was put up on the calander was ARMSTRONG...ok that's not very specific and could mean a number of different things for us cause we do so much for them. When Britt went to do the schedule she asked me and I had no idea. As you can see things haven't been communicated clearly, I'm sure it was just a mistake and i know that sort of thing happens so i'm not upset, just not looking forward to it.

Cold
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: My Boyfriend's back
I must have been really out of it last night when i updated. I just reread what I wrote and it didn't make any sense to me. Oh well.
I really just hate the snow. It's even worse now that I have David just because he works for a plowing company and has to leave in the middle of the night and not come back home until late in the afternoon the next day. He had to go out three times in two days and he might have to go out tonight too. It just really sucks. The other reason why i hate snow is because its wet and cold and gets everywhere. (Hey at least I didn't use that with sand...)
So other than sitting on the computer for the next three hours I really don't want to do anything so I guess I won't.

ExBoyfriends and I have a bad feeling about this
Mood:  irritated
OK. I will start from Tuesday night and work my way through today. This might take awhile though.
Tuesday afternoon about four I was thinking about calling my friend Laura, well as I was looking at my phone and about to put her number into it to call, she called me. We chatted for a long time to catch up and stuff. It was good to hear from her again.
After she hung up I started to think about people who haven't contacted me in so long. One of those people happened to be Paul who hadn't contacted me for nine months. Out of the blue Tuesday night, he IMed me and acted like he hadn't stopped talking to me. He asked if i wanted to hang out for old times sake and if i wanted to meet at a bar or something. I didn't say anything to that and came back at him with my own questions such as why he hadn't contacted me for so long. He gave me some lame ass answer, "I just felt we were moving in different directions" OK...right. And that gives him the option of not calling, I told him that was still very rude of him to do. Then he told me to call him and before I could reply he logged off.
I don't remember the rest of the conversation before that. I was just so weirded out that I just logged off the computer and went to hang at the store instead. I told Dave of course, he didn't seem to mind then.
Wed, I went to Naperville to visit some of my friends that are still in school. Christina skipped class to go to lunch with me and we had an awesome time even if i do say so myself. She told me she's fed up with the first assistant at the store...well as of about 3 o'clock yesterday I'm fed up with Joe.
When i left naperville I had a bad feeling about something but I couldn't quite place my finger on what it was. I ignored the feeling and I decided that I'd head into the store to get some paperwork done. I basically just snuck in and no one really saw me and I really didn't pay much attention to what was going on since i just wanted to get in and out unnoticed. Well it didn't work. Maria saw me and started calling me up to the floor. Turns out that it was only Britt and her and one grill person for another half hour. So I gave them a hand. I also then noticed that there was shamrock shake all over. I assumed that someone had just spilled it but Britt saw me looking at it and said that Joe had kicked a shake at Tammy. I looked at her blankly not exactly believing it. Britt then pointed up to the wall where the DT monitor is and that the coffee maker is up against and the shake was all the way up to the ceiling on that wall. So he really did do such a thing.
Britt then informed me that I had just missed Joe and Tammy and that she was pissed at Joe because of how he treated Tammy that day. There was something about Tammy needing to go to the doctor badly because her foot is messed up. I knew that because she showed me and it was nasty looking on Tuesday and has been for about a week now. She had made an appointment for Wed and that was the only time she could get in in the next two weeks. Joe didn't want to leave to take her because Geo had called off so Tammy was going to go by herself. Britt said that Joe didn't like that idea and grabbed the keys out of tammy's hand and pushed her to the ground, hard. Now the rest of the people that were there that day verified everything.
Tammy also showed me the bruise today and let me tell you its bad.
What the hell kind of man pushes a woman like that, let alone a handicapped person who can't keep their balance? Joe needs to lay off the pot...which I learned that he has been smoking pot too...I think that's why he's messed up. Whatever respect I had for him is now totally gone. You don't go around pushing your employees so they fall that's bad form, but its worse because she's his wife...that's domestic violence and she's handicapped. Needless to say that I didn't say one word to him that wasn't necessary today.
Well later that night, Paul Imed me again and demanded to know why I didn't call him. I lied and told him i fell asleep but in reality I was out with David. He asked if we could meet for lunch when i got off of work. I said I would agree only if I could bring Dave with me. He said cool, but weird...and he kept asking me the same questions but worded differently. I don't think he believed me when i told him I was engaged. Oh well.
Since it snowed today, Dave got called out to plow so he couldn't make it. Britt offered to go with me instead and so I said OK cause I really didn't trust Paul's intentions. Well Paul and I beat Britt to Friday's and I had my gloves on covering my ring. He demanded to see my ring so I showed it to him and he looked a bit...down. Through dinner he kept trying to take my drink and he was eating fries off my plate and i slapped his hand for it too. he used to do that when we went out. So i'm very glad Britt went with us because I seriously think that he wants to get back together with me, and my mom and Britt think so too. Too bad for him cause I'm in love with David. Yeah so I hit Paul over the head with the menu Rather hard for not calling me in nine months and then expecting things to go back the way they were before.
Before David and I became officially engaged I thought about what it would be like if Paul had come back. I thought the same feeling that I had for him would come back to me and that is why I wanted someone there with me too. It turns out I wasn't really happy to see him which surprised me in some way. I thought I would at least be happy to see him after that long but that the other feelings i got when we dated wouldn't be there. There was not the happiness more like I had to see him to get the closure for once. I don't know if that makes sense. I must not have love Paul like I thought I did anyway because I would have felt something at seeing him again. I have no guilty, or left over emotional baggage and seeing him made me realize what a great guy David is and made me appreciate and love Dave even more than I already do. I think Paul was an infatuation and not love because I always worried what he thought about me and walked egg shells around him and now I realize that we really didn't connect emotionally it was a physical attraction. Not anymore though, ew. He got taller and filled out a lot and it doesn't look good on him. The whole time we were eating I was thinking about when David would be home.
What sealed the deal that I have absolutely no more feelings of the romantic sort for Paul was when he gave me a hug good bye, my skin didn't tingle like it did when we dated and I didn't feel secure in the brief embrace and looking back I can see i really never did. I guess that was because somehow i knew he wasn't the one. It was a very awkward embrace for me and I don't think I want to have him as one of my hang out friends, I think we should just stick to online buddies.
the whole night just made me realize how good David and I are for each other.

Bling Bling and very busy
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: I Wanna Bad
I'm so tired right now. I've been sick with some sort of virus that is just irratating. I've been coughing and coughing but that's it. Sometimes I get these coughing fits that make me feel like i'm going to loose my lunch. Then there is the fact that it just saps your energy. usually I'm ready to go in the mornings but this week I had to be in early every day and I do mean everyday. I open tomorrow and I don't know how i'm going to do it. If today is any indication, I'll most likely be dead on my feet.
I mean come on I went to bed at a decent hour and as soon as my head hit the pillow I was out. I didn't wake up at all durring the night, which for me is a bit unusual and then I slept through my alarm clock. When it did finally register that I had to get up I literally had to drag myself out of it because my body did not want to cooperate. Blah.

My engagement ring finally came in. Its so pretty, it should be I helped picked it out lol. It feels weird having a ring on my left hand and not my right. Its a good feeling though, it makes me happy because it seems more real that I'm getting married.
Then of course everyone makes a big deal of it...should have expected that especially after what the crew did with Kym, lol.
I was told by Cat that one She wants to see Kym have babies soon and that I better tell Kym that for her. (Sorry Kym, she really did say that). Cat also said that after I get married she wants me to have a baby within a year. Sure Cat...*rolls eyes* I'm not ready for that yet though.